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the silence cannot hold

In our end is our beginning// In our time infinity 耶稣说【手扶着犁向后看的,不配进神的国。】 路加福音9:62 Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God." Luke 9:62 In our death a resurrection// At the last a victory 你心若向饥饿的人发怜悯,是困苦的人得满足,你的光就必在黑暗中发现;你的幽暗必变如 正午 。以赛亚书58:10 "and if you spend yourselves on behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday." Isaiah 58:10 Unrevealed until its season// Something God alone can see 因我活着就是基督,我死了就有益处。腓立比书1:21 "For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21 Truth be told, I would love to die now. I am content as it is in the silence between one thought and the next. Yet the silence cannot hold. It cannot hold and I will not die but wait patiently for the Lord.

Home is where God is

"In repentance and rest  is your salvation,      in quietness and trust  is your strength" Isaiah 30:15,NIV Home is the place.


n. realisation that everyone has a story, so rich and complex The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows "I love you as one loves certain obscure things,/secretly, between the shadow and the soul." Pablo Neruda, One Hundred Love Sonnets:XVII keyframe n. a moment that seemed innocuous at the time but ended up marking a diversion into a strange new era of your life—set in motion not by a series of jolting epiphanies but by tiny imperceptible differences between one ordinary day and the next  The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows "The woods are lovely, dark and deep,/But I have promises to keep." Robert Frost, Stopping by the Woods on a Snowy Evening "To look up-out,/ To do without./ To be now-here,/Stop inward peer."

He Speaks to Me Everywhere

Have been thinking in hymns a lot recently. This is my Father's world. I rest me in the thought! He helps me to wait patiently for Him to give me what I need, to give us what we need when we are ready. Because I know that His ways are higher than mine, and His love I never can fathom, I know I can trust Abba in His own time and will. So continue to give me that open handedness Lord. Of rocks and trees Of skies and seas, His hand the wonders wrought. A thought that I sometimes feel that I cannot bear: God has given me all these talents and capabilities, that I am doing so much by myself. Will there be someone that can form an effective team to lead us to greater things? I smile now as I remember how He spoke to me just last week: "I am for you and not against you". Whenever I had an awesome time/day/week, at the back of my mind I am prepping myself for a tough time ahead. Like God is somehow this 'benevolent suffering-generator. So yes, just like He tested

Maundy Thursday

Why am I penalised for doing good. Why is this happening to me. I can't take this anymore. F**K these shit. Yesterday all these were running through my mind. The combined events of the day just broke the alabaster I was holding things together in. I refused to let myself be reminded of Christ, knowing full well that He can help me. From today's Lent devotion: "Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from God and was returning to God;   so he got up from the meal, took off his outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. After that, he poured water into a basin and began to wash his disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around him." John 13:3-5 As Jesus came to serve and wash our dirty feet so I am called to follow His example. Even as He pushes me to do all these, He works things to give me what is needed. O God, thank You for these small miracles that are evidence of Your abiding pre