chronicles of young

And soon did I set out to procure the book, and now I have finished it. It does feel like a few grand themes in my life are coming together- all of a sudden at times, and then so slow it makes me jumpy the other. I know it is a dangerous thing to say, especially regarding that which I hold cherished. And so with veiled words and a weak attempt at eloquence: Pi, you have guessed it, A mystery known and yet not. But hush, don't be excited, The main character is not him. Simple Psyche with that meek beauty, Or Orual (her name I turn over in my lips more than Psyche) the embittered, Fox with his wise Greek sayings, And the gods who did not answer till Orual got her answer in her complaint. But no these are far from the main character, Whom we (I) fail describing and have failed. The story is now mine (and yours?), With He who made Orual a Psyche. Thus my resolve, After which a realisation. Till I have been cruel of heart (in the words of Orual still with veiled fac...

Ah, Nippon, land of the rising sun. March. Is associated to PhD and a continuation of ministry for me. This PhD to me feels like a door of opportunity, beyond the professional development. Silence leaves me heavy-hearted and much food for thought. Apostasize, and they will live. Apostasize, and you can remain in the land. Abide by the emperor edict, show proper respect to the governor. Render to Caesar what is Caesar, and to God what is God's. Yet a lamp is not hidden but is put on a stand, that those who come in can see the light. The Fallen Priest had a wife and children, and not a mention of Jesus from his lips. To become all things to all men? Silence. Let us behold our God in the silence. To mull these things in the kateware-doki.

She must be really hot, I thought. That dismissed her in my mind as I quickly shifted my eyes and body to face the counter. Now, what drink should I get? My tactic worked for she did not approach me and I was left in peace to choose an awesome drink that was reasonably priced yet imbibed a sense of luxury. A pricked conscience. I pretended to check the laptop left for grabs at the backache-inducing coffee table. There she was, just standing there, extending her hand towards that Malay chap sitting diagonally from me. He shook his head and hurriedly refocused on his book? notes? Oh, she didn't close her bag! Her wares were up for grabs like my laptop. I should tell her. She turned. She saw me looking, so I pointed at her bag. Now our bodies were parallel, and my mind stopped as thoughts and conditioned response skidded and collided inside. I could not turn away anymore. Her misshapen red shirt was wet in front. Saliva trailing from her half-opened mouth joined with the lar...

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In our end is our beginning// In our time infinity 耶稣说【手扶着犁向后看的，不配进神的国。】 路加福音9：62 Jesus replied, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God." Luke 9:62 In our death a resurrection// At the last a victory 你心若向饥饿的人发怜悯，是困苦的人得满足，你的光就必在黑暗中发现；你的幽暗必变如 正午 。以赛亚书58：10 "and if you spend yourselves on behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday." Isaiah 58:10 Unrevealed until its season// Something God alone can see 因我活着就是基督，我死了就有益处。腓立比书1：21 "For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain." Philippians 1:21 Truth be told, I would love to die now. I am content as it is in the silence between one thought and the next. Yet the silence cannot hold. It cannot hold and I will not die but wait patiently for the Lord.