Showing posts from May, 2015

With my bear Bestie

I am going to present in the AGM in  an hour's time and just did a quick run through but I still feel like I need to process my thoughts first. Spent a long time on the poolside chair at Y Rooftop today- thinking, praying, sensing within myself. I think it is also the many things that happened all at once that pushed me to just stop and think. I need space. It can be self-centred at first, this need, but in the end something comes through from God. So today found out that: - Agnes' cousin who had slipped into coma and the family needed to make a decision on whether to take her off life support. - Belvia's friend whose mum had died after a brain tumour operation - My intentions to serve, to journey with the committee I am working with has been misunderstood (I had vibes about it but I have been putting off confronting these feelings) - The Pres is quite a nice person whom I can open up to (but I didn't really until the latter half of the lunch) - I stil

Sebuah lagu yang menunjukkan bagaimana aku rasa

Aku tahu aku blog banyak kali baru-baru ini. Tetapi aku (1) perlu praktis bahasa Melayu (2) berasa sangat tertekan- terlalu banyak perkara di atas minda aku (3) lagu ini berkata apa yang aku rasa tentang dia- jadi aku hendak menulis. Harap ini akan membuat aku berasa lebih baik. Tuhan, aku tahu berliau tahu segala sesuatu, dan semua perkara akan membaikan aku. Untuk dia: Biar aku mencintaimu biar tiada siapa yang tahu. Biar aku mencintaimu dalam diam ataupun bisu. Sehingga tidak menyakitkan apabila bercakap tentang kamu.

1 Corinthians 8:1b

The theme of these past 4 days in Shang Hai. No coincidences with God; 1 Corinthians 8 was my QT reading as I held on to my luggage on the near-empty morning train. "Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up." Some thoughts before I knock out: 1. Was struggling with whether I should make this blog private or at least remove its link from my FB (which I had put in vain intentions in the first place).  2. But the purpose of this blog now is really to edify people- that my walk with God can encourage and spur other Christians on towards love and good deeds, and be a testimony to those who have yet to know Christ. 3. But but but, other than my dear friends Clemmy, Jas and Bennie if you know me personally and are reading this now please please don't discuss any of the blog's content with me. Thanks. (This is meant to be an absolute, non-negotiable request: please give my autonomous face) 4. Other than that, I am fine with being out in the open. Not

Haha it's okay lah

 /idiom/ A common Singapore phrase Used superficially to hide hurts and deflect further questions Used self-righteously to say that though one is hurt/wronged, one is benevolent while wishing hard that the other party is seen as an asshole  Used impatiently to prevent others from doing the work one knows he/she can do in a fraction of the time, not thinking about building others up Used as one ought to, to say simply: God is in control, and therefore all is well 

study break

People showing competence in self-regulation have, among other things adaptability. I think I'm quite good at reading emotional currents but not influence. The kind of very applicable stuff that I've been studying for 3 days straight. It's so utterly common sense that one gets dreary from studying.  So I decided that I shall post trivial things like the recipes I have adapted- learnt that to relieve stress, do something different to treat yourself.  (N.B. By no means am I downplaying the importance of studying all these; negotiation and conflict resolution sounds like stuff we pick up but are actually skills that need to be honed. Really love how social work modules spur self reflection and that what is taught is so congruent to how I think the world should work.) Vegan Banana Chocolate cupcakes (Adapted from Joy of Baking and Eggless Cooking ) Moist and richly chocolatey as I like Makes 12 cupcakes Cupcakes 1 cup sugar 1 cup AP flour 1/3 cup

what gives me the feels

I don’t believe in charity. I believe in solidarity. Charity is so vertical. It goes from the top to the bottom. Solidarity is horizontal. It respects the other person and learns from the other. I have a lot to learn from other people. Eduardo Galeano When life gives you bread, make bread pudding. (Afterthought: Or rather, when God gives you bread, ask Him what to do with it. And my family was blessed through this-- parents went to Botanic Gardens to feed the koi fish with the leftover bread crusts & we had a lot of fun making stuffs from the bread.) Sunday: Copied this quote into my journal- A.W. Tozer says that people who are crucified with Christ have three distinct marks: 1. they are facing only one direction, 2. they can never turn back, and 3. they no longer have plans of their own. They longer any plans of their own. Monday: Already felt like I got backstabbed by God yet the bread distribution was far from smooth (chaos?). Felt more upset as I th