chronicles of young

You know I always had some trouble spelling 'scratch' and 'scholar'? (just spelt 'scholar' wrongly for the 4th time, had to check) You know that I also tend to trip up words when I'm becoming very emotional, and how klutz-like it makes me feel? Anyway, these are some of the things that people who know me might know, but now its a brand new beginning altogether. I'm posted to an institution where I know practically less than... (lemme do the Math) 2% of the whole cohort and where the campus is HUGE, and when I say HUGE, believe me. But still, I think I'm going to like it there! Really feel kinda proud that I'm part of the school or something, you know... Post on Chinese New Year cookies coming up soon!!

.. And man, I really missed baking. My precious... Fresh out of the oven. Here's the recipe . I made it using a 9 inch Bundt pan, 40 minutes at 180 degrees Celsius. Lemon essence was my choice of flavor but I guess you can add whatever you want.  Brown sugar is supposedly healthier than granulated, so I substituted 1/2 cup with it. And I learnt that sugar can be sifted! Wow. Brown sugar was a torture though. The meringue's done and not everything is sifted... 'Cept it was a bit dry (might be due to the dragonian strength I used when mixing by hand) when it cooled. And when they say very stiff meringue, they mean really stiff. Pretty meringues make my day. For cake flour substitution, go here ! I used that method by Joy in this recipe too. Oh and by the way, I just melted vegetable shortening for the Wesson oil. Since its 'shortening that pours ' anyway. 

Yeah. I've been wanting to post about this for quite some time, but the job just leaves me so lazy and tired. Its at a bakery!! Yep. They are quite famous for their Chinese New Year goodies like their pineapple tarts. Its sorta up and down. Just this Friday I destroyed a cake while packing it, then the manager didn't scold me even though she knew. ( I didn't dare to tell her after all the scolding I got already, so I told the one that decorated the cake) I was so guilty I broke down after I left... But then again, I really love the wondrous smell of the cakes and buttercream, especially the baking kueh lapis. Its really... heavenly. Might try to bake it sometime, except that its really hard, with all the layers and all. Also, all the people there are really nice to me even though we don't talk, even the manager. Mebbe she's just really stressed because of all the customers expected during the New Year. Anyway, I guess I won't be posting so regularly ...

Its 2011. Frankly, in my usual meek manner, I'm kinda apprehensive of what this year might bring. New school, new environment, new challenges. One of my key personal challenge is showing my true colours, as I have discovered today. Am I scared of how people may perceive me? I guess so. I'm scared that they may think that I'm all nice, and yet I'm worried about them thinking I'm cold and nonchalant towards people. So now, even if its on a blog that hardly anyone comes, I want to lay myself bare. 1. I care. Seriously. I just have conflicting issues within me that made me decide that distancing myself is the best solution. Maybe this is how I show that I care, because I'm scared of what I harm I will do if I am too close to certain people. 2. I want action, action to save this hurting world, as Billy Graham says. To save the oppressed, to help the hurting, to defend the defenseless. And yet I feel like a tiny being, and I just don't know what to do. Ca...