What is good, true and beautiful?

Actually I'm just like what the shit... allow me to rant for awhile and let out the negativity. 

Was gonna post an IG story on Close Friends but realised I didn't really want to talk about stuff should anyone reply so putting it here for an almost-imaginary or future audience (hopefully me in the future feeling much better). I really have not 释怀 and believe me, I've tried. Daily, many times a day, especially after talking with boss. 

Last month I was on the track of I will just buckle down and finish my KRAs, and for awhile it worked but how long can I suppress my emotions especially when gaslighting continues right. I can deal with what I see as illogical tasks but added on with gaslighting?! SCREW YOUUUU SCREW YOUUU

I tried to use the questions of what is good, true and beautiful to focus myself on the positive... seriously some days I feel so weary trying to make the best and see the best in this place. It feels so unproductive needing to manage my emotions and negative thoughts on top of trying to work on illogical tasks. 

It's 1.5h more to knock off time and I've spent most of today trying to do just that and its killing me. I think of someone who took her own life because of work... wondering if she had gone through similar things? Thank you past Kang, for diligently saving so I don't feel that there's no way out.. money is not the solution for everything but it is a solution for a lot of things.

Can I write my resignation letter now, God? Please... 

Ending on a brighter note: I sent this cat meme to my colleagues yesterday; some nascent camaraderie.