Things to Hold

"I hold all things loosely" has been a kind of new running joke ever since I used that phrase as a snarky comeback for being rightfully jibed for refusing to do an important work process.
(Please do not learn this from me, it is not acceptable I admit. I am impulsively stubborn too, I admit.)

There is definitely value in holding your job loosely though- probably why I score low on ambition in this work behaviour survey that I did for a professional development course. I feel like my 'ambition' is not the ambition as in wanting to progress in career goals (which I don't think I have if you are talking about the conventional sense of the term).

Still, there are things to hold loosely and things to hold tightly.

I had the thought to blog this morning when I got the goosebumps recalled what happened during VCF AGM this Monday.

It struck me as very beautiful that the person was given the platform to make his speech via video, and that he shared his mental health struggles so honestly. That heart of service, and the overwhelming vote of confidence from the VCFers. Goosebumps. 
Can such a thing happen in the local church, or workplace? I don't know.

Singing the familiar age-old VCF anthem that never ever fails to inspire. Bound up with the lyrics are all those convictions, hopes and the precious realisation that God can use even me as a channel of shalom. And it is never to be sung alone.

Tuesday Kairos prayer- it has been close to 5 months and I have been conscious to put it firmly in my calendar. Intentional space created first for me to reflect and pray-think, then to cause each other's fires to burn brighter. Sometimes I am almost down to the embers, and need the restoking from someone's sharing of hope or sincere prayer.

Sometimes I tend to hold things too tight when they should be held loosely, sometimes its the other way round. And I realised I don't care as much about certain things as others in my workplace/circle of friends.

I know I am a bit strange but I also have high levels of self-acceptance. So pray do tell me if there should be something I should hold more tightly/loosely. That'll make a good friend whom I'll hold tightly.